Never feel alone.

 

Day 9 — Never feeling alone


Hindi ko namalayan kung kailan nagbago yung pakiramdam ko sa pagiging mag-isa. Dati, sanay ako na ako lang — like dala-dala yung mga iniisip ko, yung pagod, yung quiet fights and break down ko na walang nakakaalam. Akala ko ganon lang talaga, na some things you just deal with on your own. Pero with you, everything feels lighter. Kahit hindi mo alam lahat ng nasa isip ko, ramdam ko na may kasama ako, may umuunawa, may handang makinig kahit sa katahimikan. 

Sa'yo ko natutunan na hindi pala kailangan laging malakas — na okay lang mapagod, malito or magduda — kasi andyan ka. You make me feel seen, even on days I don’t know how to explain myself. And because of you, I never feel alone anymore. Hindi dahil laging magkasama tayo, kundi dahil alam kong kahit saan ako mapunta, may isang taong iniisip ako, sinusuportahan ako and pinipili ako araw-araw. Mahal kita, at sobrang grateful ako na ikaw yung kasama ko sa journey na ’to.


Mahal kita, lagi't lagi. 


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